Happy

Yey!! i pass the interview..i love it!! huhu... ^_^ wish me luck...!! 

Some.

today i am so panic!! x.x

i lost my geography rev. paper, my exam timetable, and the 1 that really important is, my English book No.1. Huh? Where I've been put it ah? =.^

Ok. Today, it's really different than before. Oh god! Why my last year attitude(come to school late) come back? Ahaaa... Well actually there's some problems i got before go to school. Ok, first, i lost my paper and book...so i' m panic. then second, i try to finish my homework maths, third, 2 guys called me up, before i take my shower. and they asking about, " Can we use ur laptop for Science project?". Urghh... WELL NO!! haha.. cauz my sister use it.

Then when i come to school,

it's a bit rainy. and i went to my class straight away, cauz it's already late..12.30pm..haha.. then when i was coming, they said, " cewah c huda a...tudung baru ia".. how many time should i told them, that, the tudong is given from Fifah. urgh..=.=

oh yeah.. english is a bit bored..i hate to do works and revision on english..AHAAAA..then,

PE... rainy day..ahaa..we r allowed to play basketball..dont care about rain..just have fun!! oh yea..cgu Sham nmpk tne main hujan, so kmi lari lh..buat2 nda tau..pastu ke study area..kes takut lh ne..hehe..den sudah bth2..kmi sambung lg..oh man..im sick..damam -.-..

break...we bought pop ice drink with different flavor. Nyummy..and then ke class...

we got no reading period..we spend our time to talk and finish our drinks...well, sr nda tau plg..hehe...mkn gula2 lg ku..ahaaa..siuk nyer....life is fun today..will i cry this nite?hope so..no..

then SCIENCE... me n ewa..help tc..sambung kn projector..apa ne nda mau ah..sr addy cm handal ja..sekalinya nda jua mau..:p

hahahaaa..anyway..we got 27/30 and highest azah's group with 29/30..hell..suppose to be..using my laptop mesti ada commision..ahax

then GEO..finish all the paper revision and 1 page on workbook exercise...:)

oh yea..i have to go now... thanks to tc diana..who keep on giving me some advice..ahaaa...YEY!!

8 days left

All I Need~

Maybe it's the right time for me to forgot about you, Tan. I want to make a new life with new attitudes and be more responsible. Now, I take my decision to take this big change. Even it's hard to do but I' ll try. Every story i made, it will end with a beautiful ending.

today is 25th October.., so 8 days left, then i leave....

from my heart

tan, walaupun kita berlainan agama, aku tetap menyayangi diri mu, sampai aku menutup mata ku..pada awal nya cinta itu tiada d antara kita tetapi sesudah beberapa bulan kita berkenalan, ada nya cinta itu tumbuh. Seharusnya cinta itu tiada timbuh d hati kita kerana cinta kita tak akan tumbuh untuk selamanya. setiap kali aku menutup mata ku, wajah mu terpancar di dalam mimpi ku, bagaikan cahaya yang telah datang kedalam ke hidupan ku. ketika kau mengatakn kau tidak dapat menerima ku lagi, hati ku sangat terluka, hidup ku seperti di permalukan dan d hina. setiap malam aku menangis akan memikirkan dirimu, kerana sudah bnyk orang yg aku sayangi telah hilang. sejak aku lahir, aku sudah ke hilangan 2 orang kakak. dan ketika aku sudah berumur 6 tahun, aku kehilangan seorang adik. kenapa hidup ku harus begitu pedih. seperti luka itu tiada pandai baiknya. mungkin kah ada sesuatu yang lebih baik daripada ini? atau mungkin kh ada sesuatu yang lebih menyakitkan? aku ingin sekali kau ketahui betapa hancurnya hati ku ketika kita berpisah. ianya bagai kan pokok bunga yang kehilangan batang nya... jika aku d beri pilihan..aku tidak akan melepas kan kau pergi..tapi demi cinta, aku perlu korban kan engkau untuk sesuatu yang lebih baik iaitu orang yang lebih baik daripada aku. mungkin ini sudah takdir suratan ku.. aku sudah sedaya upaya untuk menahan diri mu daripd pergi, tetapi, aku tak dapat memaksa..kerana aku tiada mempunyai kuasa.. lagipun kita baru sahaja kenal..mustahil di antara kita dapat untuk mencintai. tapi..secara jujur aku sangat mencintaimu.kau telah membuat aku mencintai dirimu dan meninggal kan seseorang yang begitu mencintai aku.. tidak kh kau tahu betapa hancurnya hati lelaki sekiranya ianya d duakan? atau d putus kn? begitu juga aku..aku..aku..merasa..terlalu sakit..sehingga aku kehilangan harapan untuk hidup..dan ingin membunuh diri... kau telah membuat ku begini.apa kau mengerti apa itu cinta sebenarnya? aku tidak ingin melukakan hati lelaki yg menyintai aku sebenarnya, tapi demi diri mu, ak tolok cinta mereka... tidak kh kau melihat pengorbanan mereka untuk melepas kan aku untuk dirimu? adakah kau tak tahu apa erti terima kasih? atau ucapan terima kasih? kau begitu kejam kepada ku. seharusnya aku sudah membunuh diri pada sebelum nya..tapi aku masih berharap dirimu..ingin ku jujur..bahawa dahulu ada lelaki yg begitu istimewa bagiku, tapi itu semua kisah dulu... dianata kami memang mempunyai kekurangan..tetapi..kami dapat menerima..kini, aku dan dia telah melupakan tentang hubungan kami dahulu..kini kami tidak lg bertemu... trlalu sakit sudah hati ku menahan semua ini...kenapa aku lah orang yg perlu d sakiti? kenapa? apa kau dapat jawab soalan ku selain mengatakan bahawa ada sesuatu yg lebih baik drpd ini? jika itu yg ingin kau katakan..aku harap..kau tnya soalan itu sendiri pada dirimu..

^_^

First of all I wanna say "Happy Birthday to my beloved daddy and belated birthday to Goh Kiat Chun". For daddy i dont know how old is him and to Wu Chun happy 28th birthday. :) Olrite.. Here I want to say somethings..

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Ugama School:

Olrite..Today we just learned not much. Just about Akikah (Haji) and doing excercise. And then we just got a free time. But during tulisan, we are doing zakat classwork. Then we free!!~ ehe..

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Afternoon school:

Ok. aku datang dlm kul 12.20pm. akhir x dh tu ah. membawa buku, beg and laptop lg tu..barat nyamu..ahaaa..ngaleh ku angkat ke mana2...

Math: Tc sambung pelajaran kemarin..ehee...sanang nyamu maths ane..iath fav. ku ne..eheeee... i really like maths.

Hist: Group work kmi kna suruh buat. Psl marks kmi hari au randah2..so tc suruh kmi buat group lh..aku, ewa, jirah, izam, rafie and kevin in one group. Hehe..Mental wah kmi ah..mcm siuk sendiri lg tu membuat keraja...haha.. well durang lelaki atu cool plg..but kmi nda biasa wh..:) especially aku..ahaa..

Break: Mengusai Project.

Reading period: Aku baca buku shivers yg a walking nightmare. Siuk lh..mo aku ceta? panjang x ah.. yg atu bh..kesian wah ia ah..kna tuduh ia yg buat kecoh atu..kesian eh...

ICT: we got no ICT. i mean bukan arh ICT lab..kmi arh klass saja..so kmi usai project science lh dlu..

Science: buat presentation kmi..aku in group 1..hmm.. sasak ku.. aku yg banyak membuat wah project ah..c wani  masuk kn sikit saja..yg len nada buat apa2... well..c leon pnya group lawa beb..kalah kmi..eheee,,and to jirah group..durang ane creative yoo..eheee...

BM: boring x ah..i hate BM actually..that's all..!!

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well..tonite..kmi celebrate..daddy birthday. hehe..apa lg..kmi cousin2 ane buat lawak lh..haha..sekalinya..ada bunyi smthng weird..cousin ku yg damit atu..KANTUT..ahaaa..sakit parut ku mendangar... begila kami semua ah..siuk lh..tidak dapat d bayang kn x ah..:)

bh nanti ku sambung lgi..sal yg len plg...

pain ;(

why is it too much pain in my life? and why the people around me could feel the real love where i cant feel it? why there is no love for us when we are really need it? why life is full of questions? to be honest, i' m tired being like this.

just a months ago, i meet a guy named 'tan'. well, what could i say, he is nice and a kind person. After a few weeks we chat through the live messenger, i fall in love with him. I just cant believed that he could accepted me. Well, at first, I don't really meant it cause actually I' m just joking. When he said, "If real?".. and i nodded. So then, I really love him which is more than him do. Ok, i think we start couple on 4th October and broken up on 7th October and the real day we broken up is on 14th October. Until now, i still cant forget about him. He's gone without leaving me somethings even a word of "i love u". we just broken up like we didn't know each other. I hope when I come back from Bandung, my life could be change easily. Or maybe, i can't meet him anymore. We don't know when we stop breathing. Only the almighty knows.

for tan, " sometimes i will leave you a message every one post i did. so i hope you could know what i feel without you. actually i cant let you go but the meaning of love is to be given a freedom of someone that we love. So know, i hope you were happy with your beloved one. I wont go anywhere. When ever you need me, I will be there. Even if i' m not longer to be in this earth the love we have before, has just named in our hearts. my love for you is non-lasting"