pain ;(

why is it too much pain in my life? and why the people around me could feel the real love where i cant feel it? why there is no love for us when we are really need it? why life is full of questions? to be honest, i' m tired being like this.

just a months ago, i meet a guy named 'tan'. well, what could i say, he is nice and a kind person. After a few weeks we chat through the live messenger, i fall in love with him. I just cant believed that he could accepted me. Well, at first, I don't really meant it cause actually I' m just joking. When he said, "If real?".. and i nodded. So then, I really love him which is more than him do. Ok, i think we start couple on 4th October and broken up on 7th October and the real day we broken up is on 14th October. Until now, i still cant forget about him. He's gone without leaving me somethings even a word of "i love u". we just broken up like we didn't know each other. I hope when I come back from Bandung, my life could be change easily. Or maybe, i can't meet him anymore. We don't know when we stop breathing. Only the almighty knows.

for tan, " sometimes i will leave you a message every one post i did. so i hope you could know what i feel without you. actually i cant let you go but the meaning of love is to be given a freedom of someone that we love. So know, i hope you were happy with your beloved one. I wont go anywhere. When ever you need me, I will be there. Even if i' m not longer to be in this earth the love we have before, has just named in our hearts. my love for you is non-lasting"