Death Note

Suicide

Well here you are

at the edge of the abyss...

at the beginning of infinity

heaven or hell

an afterlife

or a nothingness

forgiveness

or an eternity of suffering ?

Does anyone really know ?

Why have you come here ?

What do you need ?

To Find a Way to Live ?

or To Find a Way To Die ?

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

Here is a cup of pills

with the power

of life, and death.

What would you like these pills to do for you ?

Maybe you want to take them to die . . . ?

But I ask you now..

how many of these pills

would you take each day to live ?

To feel good, normal good, like everyone else ?

Stable, not depressed, even happy, but normal ?

These are some of the pills I take every day

to save my life.

They are not herbs or antidepressants.

I feel happy, I feel pretty good, I feel normal.

I am grateful.

It's been 15 years now that my life stay

on earth has been voluntary.

You have a chance right now

to start your life over

instead of trying to end it.

You can resurrect yourself

from this living death

to restore and re-start your life anew.

What does it mean??

last day....in the car....

me, tiqah, jirah, amal and ezwa..talking about girl stuff..*infront of sir addy*
about Tomboy, Les, and new words sir addy buat tomcat...tomgirl...

kesian sir ahh...inda tau ladies x...haha...

sir addy ckp ia inda fhm..pdhl phm ia ah...haha...
sir ngantuk..hehe..
buat bising....


my memory never lost...



I MISS THAT DAY....

Hmm

why now aku jarang kn makan? and selalu awal tido??am i changing??
hope so...>>

OGDC, Seria

today is friday...we went to seria today..with 11 student,one sir and sir addy pnya cousin...i mean my daddy..alias sr addy..wakakakaaa

today we have practice at OGDC for lalu lintas pnya competition...we arrive at OGDC before 2 pm..so kmi mula2 main2 lah arh garden..then mkn...anyway...sepanjang bejalan kmi ckp2 lah..siuk lah sma sr addy..so kmi lebih mengenali..hehe..bising x ah...sikit lgi sasat...
practice dua x..nnti ku post gmbr kmi..hehe...
im so tired..so ngaleh kn ceta kn semua...kmi gauk..tym sir smbhyg jumaat...at sebuah msjid hmpir dgn OGDC..
kmi ruah2 barang sir...all lah semua tmpat..hehe..smpai tebuka wallet sir...*shhh*
than abis smbhyg kmi eksen2 tido..sekalinya sr liat kmi..apa inda aku ketawa..haha..inda thn...buka tia kunci keta..kmi atu inda suruh sir masuk...tpi aku inda thn..haha

so buka tia pntu..den ke OGDC...main arh garden and makan pastu..*takut ku main masuk dlm atu ah..apa namanya nie..entah eh*
then aku and tikah mkn belgium waffle...hehe...favorite!! then belatih...2 round...siuk lh..aku ambil basikal..pro x ah..haha
handal eh..mati x lmpu nya ah..bth..lgging lgi...

then pastu balik...singgah ke kadai runcit...sama sir..aku balikan sr minuman psl sr inda mo kuar..then kata ku if sir inda mau bgi sha anak sr..hehe..we are crazy..jirah mcm org gila..kn tekamih saja...haha...durang penyeluru tym sr betipun dgn bini sr..aku apa lgi...ketawa lh..psl sr ckp dgn bini sr and anak sr yg inda beranti minta balikan mainan..hehe

it was happy moment..that i never forget..i always mizz them all..we have fun together..that can make us closer again...you know...when i feel so happy i will cry..because i never feel it before...friends is the only one that make me smile and laugh..i taught all my sr or tchr is friends too..i love them also like i love my parents...

today..i smile..and ianya adalah senyuman yg baru ada hadir d hidup ku...
THANKS FOR ALL MY FRIENDS AND SIR ADDY...ONLY YOU ALL CAN MAKE ME SMILE TODAY...

Let me change

I want to change...

i want to stop...

i want to start...

From the right way...

let me tell you.. i want to change.. and stop loving someone for this time.. now.. i realize that study is important.... and love is just make me stress during the exam... or maybe study... yeah..i know.. and you know too... that i love someone rite?? his name is Azim Ifwat...?? But i think i should stop it..

I don't want to love someone that never love me...i just want to love someone that love me...and i will like all people around me..even though i can't love them as special one..but i can love them as a best one...

I fallen in love with a guys name zoimz...but...i never knew him.am i crazy?? loving someone..that never knew each other??

yeah..i think i am crazy...

Now i want to start a new life..with a right way...i want to stop loving him..and start with my new life with love of God and teachers and sir...

The parents also...anyone..that  really-really important for me....too...

i am a girl.. 

that can change....

human can change...

Afternoon School Already Freedom*Not Ugama*

SMMG Mid-Year Exam... already DONE!!

Cooll...every exam..we threw the rubber..hehe.

and now today..

i always escape...i escape with amal today....

Me and amal...having somethings to do..many things lah..

Then we always out from the class...haha...

cooll..me and amal pndai buat alasan for tchr...

jap...tc soenarty pngil...then mrs.ee..pastu ke class 2C...main UNO...

During main UNO with 2 C students..i feel like a freedom..haha..

Lol...Dayat and others guys liat Magazines...and that magazines c mariam bwa..

its was BBF magazines and fasyon show..u know what i mean is..

I understand..that...all guys..love BBF...lol

Hahaa...kuning hantap kmi ane eh..dpt Mrs.Ee lgi tu....

Panat..pigang tangan lgi tu...gila kmi ane..haha..nasib nada org len...klau inda gosippp...

Sian today kmi bepisah dgn tc.tp...*i mish them*...so..kmi bnyk x ambil gmbr..ehe..

posing th nie...

*jirah ur lukisan atu unnik***

**amal..i still donnoe what to bring***

tomorrow.. practice traffic..haha...safety wah...kk..bye,....

today

Today.. i can smile because of my friends make a jokes and annoying during the exam.
But...I' m sad..when i think about a guy name, Lim.. He is my first love..But he just leave me like that..
When i smile..I will sad agen..
because first he come..he make me smile..
then he go..he left with sad..
no lights anymore...

I know...cinta tak seharus nya memiliki..

I JUST WANT DEATH!! ONLY DEATH!! IM FREAK AND STUPID..
I KNOW..IM NOT STAY LONGER..

i taught Lim is my last..but he's not..
i wonder to tell him..how long i can live..
but he already go away from my life...so thats not his prblms anymore..

NASIB

NASIB C LEON INDA SNORINGGG..HAHA..MUN INDA..KETAWA TU SEMUA..LOL
tido mcm inda bedusa...

it's really2 bad idea..

Its really2 bad..
I know its already past..but its make me always think of that..
Here..
I' m scared if teacher know him..because i forgot that i invite my teachers too to the PARTY..OMGSH..
this 5 letters make me worried..
anyway..i give him msg..and told him that I.L.Y...but..he said he dun received any msg..
omgshh..god what am i doin?? am i so stupid??
I' m afraid if he and my sir, sr addy come..because sr addy is so close to my sis..im afraid that he will tell my sis about this...NO WAY>>>
i cant think anything except telling the truth..i must say that i love him because i dont want him to come..its wasnt the 1st time..*no one know what the story behind this*
urghh..stop...!! i dun want to think about it agen..its make me suck..

Hey,,

Hai..Thanks for god because 6 subject already past...But i still don't know..That i get Distinction or not..But hopefully YES.
I scared about my marks for History and Science..I know teacher and sir will mad at me..:'(
I ALREADY TRY MY BEST KALI URGHH!!
Today we have exam..And i sit for IRK and MAths..
Cooll...I love MAths so much..And IRK alhamdulillah..sanag berabis lai..
I hope i can get Distinction for this subject...

anyway..tdi tym waiting for paper kna ambil..kmi begauk..like many students main throwing rubber...lol..
Firstly me, Amir and Kimin buat pkai Staple..then after that..my staple abis..then ku ambil lah aku punya rubber..then cut2..pastu..throwing to Amir, Kimin, Ewa, Fifah and Zihah..cool im the one who start it..then besambung2 tia..tersebar sampai kan semua buat...*I think LEon sleeping*....
WTH..sr. azadi inda marah kn kmi..you know he is weird guy..i mean weird sir in my school..
He is so shy and really2 cool..Haha..Ya kn??But when he teach us..i feel boring..because when he come he just give us the paper and ask us to do it..WITHOUT EXPLANATION.!!I think i will fail if he teach me for a year..haha...
Cool..its about 30-40 minutes we spend our time for throwing rubber to each other. Because we think the paper is really easy and not difficult like other paper..:D
I think only until dat i can share.Hehe..

Now, tomorrow we have tourist i mean Qori Al-Quran..from Malaysia..Ia kn melawat kmi tilawah al-Quran..anyway..he won the last year pnya international Qori ah..So..what i wish i can come earlier tomorrow..:D

Ok..that's all...C ya...

So if I had a boyfriend

so if i had a boyfriend;

his name would go here & this would be the spot where i would say 'omg i freakin love you' but no, not me. im sayin im single right now & im fine with that & this spot will be saved for that boy when he comes along <3

I wonder to say this by my heart...

Hi,
My name is EYNARAH. I want to tell the world about somethings. Somethings that I scare when I lose it.
There is many things that I afraid to lose it. I' m afraid to lose my family but I know one day I will lose them because no one will stay alive in the world. Secondly I' m afraid losing my way because I know it's important when I already dead. Third, I' m afraid losing my friends because only my friends that make me happy for my entire life.
I know that I am horrible person.And not really normal.
I' m afraid of death but i wonder it...
I don't want to stay alive in the world.
Because i know...Live in the world is not forever..
and we also know..someone that we love will death..and for me..it's not fair..

I know

I KNOW I FAILED MY SCIENCE AND HISTORY..THAT WAS MY BAD..
I HATE MY LIFE...

Love

..The day i will marry my friend, the one i laugh with live for, dream with.......

InaXc

i know im not cute..

dats why..i want to be SINGLE FOREVER

SOUTH EAST ASIAN

SELAMAT HARI KEBANGSAAN ALIAS KEMERDEKAAN KE ATAS RAKYAT INDONESIA..YANG KE SERATUS TAHUN...
DAN TAKZIAH KEPADA MENTERI NYA YA...

I LOVE YOUR SHOW..HAHA..
I LOVE DIKIR BARAT..ITS NICE..HEHE

TODAY IM BUSY

TODAY IS 20TH MAY 2008. ANYWAY..AS U KNOW TODAY IS ISAAC'S BFDAY, MY BEST FREN AND MY TC'S MOM BFDAY. HEHE...(biar tia famous)

UMM..TODAY IN THE MORNING...IM FEEL SO BORED..BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING INTERESTING..BUT..ME AND TIQAH INDA CONCENTRATE BELAJAR..BECAUSE..WE READ COMIC BOOK WAH TIME TC MENGAJAR..GAUK JUA TU.. SIUK LGI BACA COMIC..HAHA...SEDIH SAMPAI NANGIS KU MEMBACA..(LOL)..

HMM...IN THE AFTERNOON CLASS..ITS REALLY FUN AND ITS ALSO MAKE ME TIRED. TODAY ASSEMBLY NADA..COOL..IATH BATAH MENUNGGU TC BIAH MASUK..AIYOO...THEN SDH ATU..ME AND UMI KN AMBIL MOP..BECAUSE OUR FLOOR WET... SEKALINYA ADA TIA TC AH..SURUH NYA TIA AMBIL BUKU...NGALEH KU EH...3RD FLOOR LGI BLOCK KMI ANE..BAIE..
after MIB we have Math..omgsh..my fav. subject...BUT I HATE REVISION...(exam is coming soon)..i think it was last day all our TP teacher teach us..:( so bored mah...after maths..SCIENCe...cooll.i love it..haha..actually i know today we have test revision..omgsh..we're late...but we r free..because sr.addy turun kmi naik..haha...then enter the the lab take the revision test paper...haha..all easy..mah..but i got 16/20...anyway..today we have break late...its about 3.++...but who care..after putting all my stuff at the class..then i went to the canteen..buying mineral water for PE time..then today we also dont have reading period...so we just wait at study area..until all form 2 and teachers come...me, mang yin and amal played volleyball..i think we are good on playing it..because most of us yang serve wah and balas balik..haha...(thanks for sr.addy because teach us)...then after PE we have BM...omgsh..test..how many test kn today??....haha..sanang jua ah..tc diana ane bgi test but before she gave the paper she told the answers...haha...then after BM we have SCIENCE again..haha...2 times for SCIENCE on tuesday...cooll..i love it...OWW!! test again??!! nvm..its easy..haha..really easy..we havnt count our mark and we still dun noe the rite answer...so i cant show off my mark for that..(haha..)


then after SCIENCE, gve sr the invitation card...then went home..and lastly at home..im watching tv..the soulmate show and national day of indonesia..the 100 years..(i think)...wait..befire that im eating some food and my fv. drink..(dont want to mention it)..and now..im typing this post...

k thats all...

tomorrow is exam...so then...WISH YOU LUCK MY FRIENDS FOR TOMORROW..:D

SPECIAL FOR HIM

THIS IS SPECIAL FOR MY FRIEND ISAAC AND MY TC'S MOM...
I JUST WANT TO SAY 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'..
THIS DAY IS YOUR SPECIAL DAY..
HAVE FUN AND WISH YOU TWO LUCK..

LOVE YOU ALL...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND, ISAAC.
WISH YOU LUCK, OKAY


ON THE 20TH MAY IS UR BFDAY..UPCOMING ONE MONTHS IS MY BFDAY..HAHA..
I LOVE NO.20...:P


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ISAAC.....

I am EMO

Emo

Go cry, Emo Kid

You are an emo, let's face it, you crave attention, you want people to notice that bandaged up wrist of yours with a blood stain on it. Just....try to keep going! I'm with you!(not)(or maybe i am)(nah, go die lol jk)

INVITATION

TO: 2 ASPIRASI STUDENTS AND INVITED TEACHERS AND T.P TEACHERS.

INSYA-ALLAH ON THIS 1ST JUNE..WE WILL HAVE PARTY AT BERAKAS BEACH. WE WILL GIVE THE INVITATION CARD LATER.

I HOPE YOU ALL CAN COME AND BRINGS SOME FOOD AND DRINKS.
MAYBE BBQ PARTY LAH..HEHE..

TO BE CONTINUE...



*LIMITED*

New Style

cool...hehe

Hmmm

I'm bored..so i just post the latest pict lah..because nada yg new..hehe..maklum..im not pro in taking picture but i love taking picture..tau dah..my camera ne..panat..msti d-service..aiyaa..
im over bored..!! i am bored!!

Mother's Day

I just forget about thaat..Sorry mom..:D

My hand hurt

how i cut it..??


kacau jua camera latop ane eh..nda berapa tarang..baie jua eh...

401

Munjung Jua Mulut Atu..Haha

Ada style lagi tu...
Piwet....HAhahaa



I still remember..NAma orang ane...aku buat arh composition 'Fishing trip'..Haha..
ONe day...bla..bla..blaaa

B****** and Z**** went together to..blaa..blaa..blaa..

for Zoimz

haha..just kidding..
you can view it..any time...
haha..

For Zoims..

Haiyaa..Stop viewing my blogs lah...And stop ask me about Lim..He just a past..Like u know...Ehe..

Happy Birthday

Today is 8th May 2008...
I want to say..
Happy Birthday to Lim Thien Poh my dear friend..
Or just call him Chriss...

That's all..

....

you are my wayne...you are the light...

It was me...

Hey...
I' m so sad today..because its the last day i' m sit near to Wayne...I really wish that i can sit near close to him again. Why is it only for 2 days? For this two days i just spent my time looking at him and do dream-day.

I' m melting..
Near to him...I feel like heaven is open for me and him. And he become my angle...
Like i said before..He went to Kota Kinabalu for few days..And at that time i really feel so lonely..And now..when he's back..I feel like my energy comes back..

I' m not insane only because thinking of him..But near him..i feel calm down...
Near to him i can feel how love is. With his smile and voice..its make me more love him...

Now..I don't have any chance to talk with him again. Maybe that day is the last time we talk..and now..there is no chance for us anymore. Just by saying hi to him and he replied..I will feel so happy.

I always thinking about him with full of love...I always pray for him for his ambitions and others dream. I wish for his dream becomes true.

No one can feel how am i feel. Because its only me and him that understand...

UP COMING!!

27/07/2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE!!
I WON'T FORGET IT...
I REALLY MISS YOU..

WHERE IS HIM??

WHERE'S WAYNE??!!
I MISS HIM..
LATELY I DON'T SEE HIM..
HE WENT ABOARD?
I WANT HIM BACK...
I REALLY WANT..
PLEASE GOD..
I REALLY LOVE HIM..
I CAN'T CONCENTRATE...
OMGSHH...
I LOVE MY WAYNE SO MUCH..
WAYNE..
WHEN YOU BACK??
PLEASE...

05.05.2008 MONDAY

WENT TO SCHOOL ABOUT 7.20 AM. WHOAA..I ALWAYS LATE WAH..MY MOM ALWAYS MAD AT ME BECAUSE IM ALWAYS LATE..HAHA..YOU KNOW MY ATTITUDE RITE..


SCHOOL:
WE GOT TEST TODAY..ORAL TEST..OMGSHHH..ITS SCARY ME..AHX..
1ST PERIOD IS AL-QURAN..IM THE FIRST ONE WHO SIT THE ORAL TEST..HUAHUAHUAAA..GOT DISCOUNT FROM TEACHER..AND MY MARK GOT 78..WHAT??!! SO LOW..WELL..TC JUHAIDAH SAID..SHE GVE ME THE SECOND CHANCE..JUST TO MAKE SURE MY MARK NOT LOW...
ANYWAY..DONT TELL ANYONE..THAT TC JUHAIDAH JUST TOLD US ABOUT WHAT THE QUESTIONS..HAHA...

AFTER AL-QURAN..WENT TO OUR CLASS..AND HAVE AMALI ORAL..HAHA..IM FREE..TC SAID SHE WANTS US TO READ FIRST..COOL..XP

THEN BREAK..DOING NOTHING..AFTER BREAK..AS USUAL TOO...................................MY HAND IS GETTING A BIT SORE... ......................................... ....................................................

THEN WENT HOME..AFTER THAT AFTERNOON SCHOOL..AHAX..
*miss the sandwich*

SMMG:

FIRST PERIOD IS ENGLISH...WE JUST DOING CORRECTION..YEAH..TC FATIMAH IS GONNA HAVING BABY..I WANT TWINS..AHA
THEN AFTER THAT...HIST..NO..GEO..TC NADA..SO MRS.EE RELIEF AND SHE TEACH US GEO..AND HAVE TEST AND WE CAN SEE THE ANSWER IN THE NOTE BOOK..TEST??!!APA KU TAIP ANE KN?? NDA BELURUS...

YG PLING SIUK TDI..TYM AKU N JIRAH..HAHA..
TDI MASA IRK..TC SARA SURUH KMI AMBIL INDEX KMI ARH TC FATIMAH..
PASTU KMI TURUN..THEN IA CKP AMBIL ARAH KERANI...PASTU..SEBLUM KMI LARI..TC CKP KRG DANGAN KN TC MEN STAPLE..HEHE..KMI DUA NE MAU2 SAJA..THEN KMI GTAU TC..KMI AMBIL DLU INDEX DI ATAS..PASTU..NYA KERANI..ARH TC KMU..PASTU IA CKP ARH SR HJ ADDY..PASTU..KMI JMPA LAH SIR ADDY..HEHE..MY DADDY..HUHU..

katok pintu...,''tuk..tuk..samekom..hi sir''..pstu msuk ke dlm..''sir kmi kan mnta index kmi untuk esuk test''..pastu..nya sir..arh form tc kmu..pastu kmi gtau lh..tc alum ambil..pastu nya sr ambil arh enth apa namanya tu ah..lupa tia ku..pyh kn sabut..
then oleh kerana kmi nda tau apa2..sir addy hntr kmi..ehh...suruh nya lgi tu mengankat file ke bilik principle...menyaya wah sir ah..suruh nya angkat kerusi tarus..rupanya main2 saja..malu ku eh... then kmi angkat smpai ke bilik principle..pastu..be air-con skjp..sementara menunggu sir..pastu turun..then ambil kertas...then back to the class...

'' batah jua..ehh..''...haha..kmi atu bth psl busy lah cgu ane..then tarus staple ke blkng klas index atu...pastu belajar...then sudah period commerce..tc sofia nada kn tu..pstu..kmi gtau lah..arh tc relief..tc soenarty..kmi gtau ada keraja lgi arh tc fatimah..ia th kmi turun..taruz buat d eng resource room...smpai balik wah kmi ah..haha...rajin psl nda mo bljr..
aku akhr balek wah...ia th tym ku blik..masa lps ambil bek..aku terserempak dgn sr addy..nya sir akhir jua..kna denda kh?? actually mula2 aku nda tdngr psl sr ckp atu laju.. pastu..sir ckp lgi..tpi still dun get it..den sr ckp..kana punishment kh? baru ku tdngr..haha..tebuat english baru fhm..maklum..aha...

pastu..balik..eh..seblm ku blik..aku jmpa tc fatimah..ambil schedule...

then home...

home?? umm.boring..haha..nada deyh..just usual...