I wonder to say this by my heart...

Hi,
My name is EYNARAH. I want to tell the world about somethings. Somethings that I scare when I lose it.
There is many things that I afraid to lose it. I' m afraid to lose my family but I know one day I will lose them because no one will stay alive in the world. Secondly I' m afraid losing my way because I know it's important when I already dead. Third, I' m afraid losing my friends because only my friends that make me happy for my entire life.
I know that I am horrible person.And not really normal.
I' m afraid of death but i wonder it...
I don't want to stay alive in the world.
Because i know...Live in the world is not forever..
and we also know..someone that we love will death..and for me..it's not fair..